Hey there. I know I disappeared for a while, but your girl’s been busy trying to get her life in order.
I haven’t written in a really long time, but this feels natural. I thought I’d sit staring at a blank page for ages, but as soon as I started, the words just kept coming.
For a while, I was struggling with how I felt about where I am in life. I was battling with consistency, feeling drained, and honestly just losing track of time. Part of that was because I lost my aunt recently. It wasn’t easy, but I’m okay. I know she’s in a better place.
There was a point where I felt like I was just existing. Days blurred into each other. I didn’t know whether I was coming or going—some days I didn’t even know what day it was. I was just going through the motions.
But things have started shifting.
I’ve gotten back on my horse. I’m back at the gym, I’m running again, and I’ve even started a new Chloe Ting workout programme. I’m also on track with my schoolwork (with exams coming up, that’s a big win). And oh—I’ve started gardening again.
Small things, but they matter.
I’ve actually lost weight without even trying, which feels like a quiet win. I’m enjoying running again, and I’ve passed the 5 km mark—something I’m really proud of. Now the focus is on improving my time and building the stamina to run a full 10 km.
I’m still not where I want to be.
But I’m also not who I used to be.
I’ve grown in my faith, and I feel more positive about life in general. Even now, as I’m writing this, I’m sitting at work, and I haven’t been paid yet—something I thought I had left behind. The old me would have been frustrated and angry. But now? I’m choosing to focus on what I can control—submitting job applications and trusting that God has bigger plans for me.
Right now, my main focus is on preparing for my exams. I only have 7 modules left between me and graduation—something that once felt completely out of reach. Funny how things start to change when your mindset does.
Losing my aunt reminded me how important it is to make the most of the time we have. Life is short, and I don’t want to spend mine worrying about things and people that won’t matter in the long run. I don’t want to keep putting my life and happiness on hold.
So no, I’m not where I want to be yet.
But I’m proud of myself for not staying where I was.
And for now, that’s enough.
