Cape Town Journal: Entry #22

September 17th, 2021

I don’t want to have to go back home, not to that environment. I feel it’s very toxic and from what I hear over the phone, not much has changed…

Job hunting is tough!

I’m halfway into the third month and still, nothing yet. It’s stressing me out but I’m trying to concentrate on the things I do have control over.

Sometimes I feel really lonely. I feel like my friends are busy having good lives and I’m out here, by myself, just existing. It just feels like when I actually need someone to talk to, no one’s available…

It freaken sucks!

I’m tired of worrying about not having money all the time. Tired of not being able to afford anything. I just need things to come right for me.

I had a pretty good day though, up until my phone rang. This is why I don’t like answering my phone when someone from home calls – 9 times out of 10, it ends with some bullshit.

Time for me to find a way to address the situation, without getting annoyed or angry. But I know the message won’t be received well…

But on the other hand, fuck home! It’s sunny here in Cape Town (and I’m not referring to the weather).

I’m feeling healthier than ever. Getting into shape and working on my body. Concentrating on growing my blog and hopefully landing a good job soon.

I can’t give up! Not now…

See this is why I started writing in the first place – to get rid of all the negative thoughts I was having and it helps me a great deal. Really keeps me sane!

Sure, my life may be a mess but at least now I’m providing entertainment for someone hahaha.

Oh, Cape Town, please bring me something good…

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